Love is a homeless guy, searching for treasure in the pouring rain...

And finding a bag of gold coins, only to find out they're all filled with chocolate.
And even though he is heartbroken, he can't complain.
Cuz he was hungry in the first place.



I don't understand why I'm kicking ass at my AP Psychology, but am barely getting by in Mythology.
It could be because Psych is so much more interesting...but that isn't it. I like both, really.
I'm just doing a shitty job of applying myself.


This break has been such a non-break from stress. Seriously.
Softball is just extreme, i can't catch a second of down time from it.
And I'm feeling morally conflicted as well, on a bigger sort of issue.

But I'm allowed some fun, right?
I'm hoping for some this weekend.

And answers. I'm so beyond confused.
I hope I'm not being "typical" about this. You know, naive.
But everyone is naive sometimes...probably. Even me.
Forgive me if things go badly, please.







And this video gives me such a blast of nostalgia.
I was there, that is ME up there in the front row :)
It brings back old times, but this song also means a little bit more now..

An Adventure is..

Planning to go somewhere, but ending up doing something else instead.



I'm enjoying an already epic fall break, and listening to some epic Dance Gavin Dance.
And really hoping to go to The Fall of Troy show next weekend. And a massive haunted house.
I miss Megan alreadyyyy.
I'm ridiculously sleepy, and running on like 5 ish hours for the whole of break thus far.
Mchickkaaa.

I need a new Palahniuk.

If you want to be Passionate,

I think you should first know how to spell the word passion.


Not to be an overly cynical smartass or anything, but that seems...moderately important ;)



Incidentally, my life doesn't have much passion currently. Its too overwhelmingly busy for that.
But its okay, I feel like I'm sort of getting a lot done. College decisions are overwhelming me. Softball is taking up way to much time. I really want to start going to the gym soon. I want to be doing more for fun reading and more for fun writing again. I want to just lie down in some green green grass and do the things I do best. Which isn't much but there is no time for sitting right now.

And most importantly, over fall break, I want to have a couple of adventures. I don't know how, what with the time shortage and general lack of adventures around here. But I keep hoping.

Positive people-observations.

Often, I feel as if I focus on the bad side of people. But sometimes, I dwell on the goodness as well.

Sometimes, a stranger has the power to make my day. A 15-45 second exchange of words leaves me smiling for the next hour, for no real reason.
Some people just seem so happy, so genuine. A stranger with no bad intentions, someone just saying pleasant things because its what they feel.

Its like the Black truck driver fellow at the gas station that one time. All we did was talk about the weather while we pumped our gas, but he was just so sincerely happy that the sun was shining again. So happy it was contagious.

When these people walk out of my life forever, mere seconds after we met, a small part of me misses them. A large part of me wishes them a happy life. Anyone with the power to make a stranger smile deserves the best.

To myself, I hope that these people find something amazing.
People that often go unnoticed. Often in the public service industry. Truck drivers and janitors and such. People who do their jobs under the radar, but are glad to exchange happy words with anyone who is willing.
It just seems so...hopeful.
I hope these people are happy.
And I hope someone makes them feel appreciated. Because they make me smile.

But then again, I think I just like talking to strangers in general sometimes.

Happy October!

Maybe its a nice change of month. I'm certainly feeling a lot of things right now.

I feel like I'm growing up. But that is still quite a struggle.
I feel appreciated. Like I really do matter to a few certain people, at least.
And most importantly, I feel hopeful. Like I have more control, and I'm sort of going the way I would like to. And this is exciting.

I've heard a lot of great things from people lately. So much that I forget it all.
But today, i was told a great quote. "Happy emotions lead to happy bodies." This can be taken in multiple concepts, but for some reason I like it.

So lets all have lots of happy emotions.
:)


Ohhh and, today I found out about Chuck Palahniuk's new book in progress. Its quite exciting!!
And, he is putting out a book of stories from fans and such. From a Writer's Workshop kind of thing. I would absolutely die for an opportunity like that. Maybe one day, I'll get it. But I still need to create that epic story..